:R:eality

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it seems that an external source is needed,
for I am far too weak to fabricate energy or determination on my own.

after all this time, you'd think i'd have found a clue; a hint - of something stable

                          but everything
                                           is
                                        inconsistent.

what was left of my strength is slowly being d e t e r i o r a t e d by the
                             endless failures and disappointments

       -  constantly h a u n t e d by the looks of lost pride, and buried dreams.

if I am aware of all these disintegrations , will I eventually hold tight,
                                       and persuade the
                                                    f r a g m e n t s back to me?

will this noose of  lack-of-motivation ever loosen its grip!?

in between
                   impatience         and          strangling.

back to
            enlarging small aspects,
                                to ignore the c r u s h i n g weight of the big ‘R’  


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